what i want

there are so many things i want. as pathetic as it sounds, i kind of want a boyfriend. like, there isnt anyone i particulary like, and i dont want a boyfriend for the sake of it. but i want to actually like someone, and for them tolike me. just someone i can always talk to, when its late and you just want to text someone. and someone who wants to spend time with you. i mean, my friends are amazing and i love them. but i want to be someones favourite person. i want someone to randomly text me because they were thinkng of me or just because they can. and logically, i know that im so busy at the moment with college and work and friends etc, that really i dont have any time for someone else, and it would just complicate my life and i'd moan about i wished things were simple. but honestly, i like the complications. they make everything more interesting, and at the moment, despite all the excitment in my life. like driving, and looking at unis, and making new friends, going on holiday, my cousin visiting, all that stuff that a year ago i would have been so preoccupied with. now its just the usual, and i want something more.